"the art of

I'm 20 & the art I have found in me is the art of laziness, the art of doing nothing & the art of hating the man I am. 

I have no job but I do realize I have responsibilities. I hate the concept of money cause I don't have it. My one hobby is drawing but it sucks nowadays. Another hobby is writing but I'm not writing kyuki idk, Write about love? That's something I'm not getting.

 Write about the mannerless, sinful creatures that humans are? Idk

My thoughts change in seconds one second I'm afraid, the next I want to raise my voice against things. The next morning, I'm just going with the flow like a dead person 

Calling myself a creative genius what kind of creative person goes into a lethargic state doing nothing, fighting his own thoughts, pulling ideas that die in the mind after a day ? 

"Motivation doesn't help things it flows like pee, and in seconds it's done" - bontlaah (original hai)